journal memories

so, i'm coming up on the start of my 27th year of life. i decided this warranted a review of my journals. i'm going to let you in on some excerpts.....get ready!!

1996 (9th grade)

-" i really like Daniel a lot. he's 13 and fun to be around."
- the next day--- "i kind of take back what i said yesterday. i like him as a sfriend. i want him to be my friend too. i mean, if he wants to be more than that it's okay too"

Make up your mind Heather!

1997

nothing must have happened that year!

1998

-first official boyfriend....it lasted for about a month!

1999 (11th/12th grade)

- i wrote about meeting with the guidance counselor to see if i could pull of graduating at the end of 11th grade....so i didn't have to start afresh in michigan for senior year.
- went to mozambique over the summer
- participated in swimming in michigan and struggled with starting a new school and my eating habits

2000 (12th grade/freshman year)

- "i'm a new alumni from saline high school. i graduated yesterday afternoon. it was a really boring service, but at least i'm done"
- i mention that "the thong song" was played at prom...classy!
- i talk about my new friend angie

2001 (freshman/sophomore year)

- "unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labor in vein"
- lots of talk about if my major is correct...
- "common sense is not faith and faith is not common sense"
- "just think, God was so smart that he created physics for us to discover" can you tell i loved physics?!?!
- the fall semester was just rough....school was tough, debating med school, emotionally
- overall, my observation is that i began to have a lot deeper and higher thought processes...i don't think there was one comment about a boy!

2002 (soph/junior)

- "as a result of a fear of rejection, i think i have a fear of commitment/making decisions. if i don't make a decision, in essense, i'm chosing rejection for myself and a longer road of uncertainty."
- "Taylor Sounds went to the Ft. Wayne woman's club. they were so gracious. i was blessed immensely"
- i wrote about breaking curfew on the Sounds' trip to the Bahamas. Dr. Rediger wasn't happy!
- i started my job at st.joe's as a nurse's aide. i spoke about my preceptor..."she really demonstrated love of the seemingly unloveable. it is really easy to clean the people with clean bottoms and nonsaggy breasts, but what about the fat, smelly people whose family doesn't visit?" i didn't say it was politically correct!
- "yesterday i found out that something was wrong with my fruit flies....i cried a lot!"
- october 20th, first mention of considering a PA---as a result of crying through I AM SAM
- let's just say december 2002 was the craziest month of relationship issues (both good and bad) in my life


more to come as i keep reading!


birthday reflections:

-19th birthday "i opened mom and dad's package. it's a good thing material posessions aren't supposed to satisfy us!" ---cracks me up!
- 20th b-day--angie had people from the dorm write cards which i got throughout the day. i also talked about disecting my shark!